Illuminating Ellie

After a long and emotional Thanksgiving break, we were ready to get to the bottom of things. We started our day with an appointment with our pediatrician and care coordinator. Luckily, it was scheduled prior to receiving the denial letter from the insurance company last week. We had a very productive appointment; we were ready for our next steps and had a game plan ready to go (I am so thankful for these two truly amazing people).  As soon as we got home, Pete got on the phone with our insurance company to see why they denied the request for whole exome sequencing. We went round and round between our insurance and the genetics' office (spoiler: we never really got a straight answer, only the blame game). Fast forward to the third time I spoke with our genetics' office, and I was able to actually speak with a genetics counselor, she saw in our chart the approval for Katie Beckett (KB), and she stopped straight in her tracks. She let us know that little piece of informati...

After over two months of going back and forth with the insurance company for preauthorization for whole exome sequencing, we received a denial letter today, with the reasoning that it is “not medically necessary”. I am devastated, truly and utterly defeated.  How can they say “not medically necessary”, like her symptoms don’t exist. Like it’s completely normal for a 16 month old to not be able to do basic things. For her to have nonstop movements, continuous wobbles, not to be able to sit without one arm planted on the ground to support her, even when in her high chair. She can’t stand without collapsing, even if you’re holding her. She can’t hold her bottle, she can hardly feed herself without dropping every other piece of food. She can’t pull to sit, or keep hold of her toys. She has very limited strength, and her posture has completely declined. She can’t make her kissy sound that she used to make at me constantly before all this happened.  Not medically necessary. Somethin...

This week was filled with mixed emotions, but who are we kidding, that is our life lately.  After almost two months of waiting, we finally had our Katie Beckett interview/eval Monday. It was two hours of back to back questions about Ellie and her abilities. Hearing it in a string of questions, one after another after another, was heart breaking to say the least. I had to excuse myself three times. It’s like you know she needs help, but to hear it all at once was very overwhelming. They asked questions like:  Can she hug you? Does  she put her arms out for you?  Does she understand when you point at things? Can she sit on her own, without support? Can she eat on her own? Can she hold her bottle/sippy cup? And just a lot of other questions that one at a time are probably manageable, but all at once were unbearable. We got through it, but there was a bit of a cloud over the week. One thing I have been feeling lately, with Ellie being undiagnosed, is that maybe there’s a...

Three months… it has been three months today since our lives were turned upside down. How can it be three months and yet we still have no answers? We just sit, wait, and watch our little girl, day in and day out. She has had three MRIs, a spinal tap, more labs than I can count, yet, we just sit and wait.   Two months ago, we were told the next step would be genetic testing (whole exome sequencing), but it turns out you have to jump through hoops to get the insurance preauthorization and we are still waiting—it’ll be another 1-2 weeks before we have an answer, which may not even be in our favor. How is this even possible, how is this even okay, to make a now 15-month old baby wait? Our sweet girl has stopped growing. Have you ever heard of such a thing? We had her 15-month checkup last week and she has not grown in length, at all, in three months time—they rechecked her three times. She has gained a couple ounces in weight. Her little feet haven’t even grown. We just sit here and w...